OB May 12, 2009

wow, my ob rotations started today, and although i worked in labor and delivery for 3yrs back in college, i am so in over my head.  there is so much that is happening with a woman’s body during pregnancy it is insane.  i think i would rather just have the baby and not know all the details!  i have many many friends and family pregnant right now, and i really am going to have to keep my mouth shut around them, because really who wants to know all those details??  anyway it is still a bit fascinating, it is just not any kind of common sense that i have.  i am reeling that there were not so many more deaths during child-labor back in the day…and not to knock midwifes, but i am sure going to deliver (when i do become pregnant) at a hospital, just in case of any possible complications!  i seriously pray the lord opens my eyes to the “miracle” of this all because right now it is all so scientific, it is a miracle to me it works at all honestly.  sorry for the mini-freakout, but today was a whole lot of information to process.  and the Psalm 139:13-18 makes more and less sense…i think i will be studying it during the next 5 weeks:

  You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
      and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
  Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
      Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
  You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
      as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
  You saw me before I was born.
      Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
   Every moment was laid out
      before a single day had passed.

  How precious are your thoughts about me,O God.
      They cannot be numbered!
  I can’t even count them;
      they outnumber the grains of sand!
   And when I wake up,
      you are still with me!